I despise myself.
BUT BUT BUT!
I have nothing to do so I think it's always better to pretend like you are so busy typing than sitting idly like an idiot.

Internship is useful, but interning in a firm like this doesn't help.
Well, I chose it because mom says working at home town may save a lot.
So now I have to eat my own balls.
I can't think of other way than to SUCK THEM UP.
I feel sorry for myself sometimes, then I think of my mom.
Self-pity goes away immediately.
She has a daughter like me, everyone including herself should feel more sorry than I do.

OWHHHHHHHHH At first I feel guilty for being such a bad employee who practically sit at the desk for nothing.
Then I saw the chambee opposite my desk is going through some shopping website.
Well, guiltiness dissolved into jelly and POOF, into dust and gone.
I am the FREE slave after all, of course I can get online when they have nothing for me to do.
NOTHING!
I have been here for the whole week, and they have NOTHING for me.
Still squeezing my brain juice to find a way to write SOMETHING on my daily report.
SOMEONE KILL ME, knife is on me.

I wanted to start this entry because I wanna tell about a guy I admire a lot recently.
Then my brain insist me to blab on nonsense.
Blame my brain blame no me kay.

okay.
The guy.

This is it.
Don't ask me why. SHHH.
because I don't have the answer!

The last time I checked I did not admire his look this much at past.
then suddenly I found myself staring at his picture for more than 10 seconds.

I don't know him, but I bet I met him before in tuition class which I don't remember which.
I don't know how his voice sound like.
I don't know if he is sweet or mean.
I don't know if he is straight or ... (okay! rubbish! he has a girlfriend!)

Conclusion, I don't know him, from head to toe.
If his Facebook name is Superman, then that's will be the only name I believe I know.

I despise myself again, for some stupid admiration over stranger, who is not smoking hot and worse, has a girlfriend.
AND I EVEN STALK HIS FACEBOOK AND SAVED HIS PHOTO SO THAT I CAN BLOG ABOUT HIM.
I am not only stalker, I am also a pervert.
A pervert who has just violated cyber law a few minutes ago.
Thinking of that makes me sick. EWW.

He is not handsome, yes, but I cannot stop myself from liking his look!
So charming!

He has the look of my typical preference I think.
(Give me a moment, I gonna go puke for what I said.)

I hate to admit that I love to look at him but in fact I do!
This is the worst part I think.

I swear to the Seven Gods, both Old and New, I do not fall for him.
Even if I do, I just fall for his look.
So don't tell him there is this pervert stalker liking his face okay LOLOLOL

I am glad I still remain so slutty!
That means I will fall in love one day soon, fearless.

See, first love trauma defeated.
Hee :3